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Friday, December 12th, 2003
4:20p - fucking a, man.
Why is it that whenever I find something to make me happy, I just want more? I feel as if I'm forever in search of something that I already had and am trying to get back because I didn't appreciate it enough the first time around. No matter what I do, or what choices I make, I hurt myself or worse, somebody I love, and I end up wondering what would have happened if only I'd gone with choice "c."
I'm having the time of my life, but at the same time I feel like the scum of the earth. I don't understand. How can I be happy and utterly miserable at the same time?

current mood: crushed

(4 words of the day | scream real loud)

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